I drop the old life
like a burning hot coal
that cannot be held any longer..
Gone,
no longer mine
And wisdom whispers,
"It never was.."
Category: healing
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Great aloneness
Great Aloneness
Do not fear the abyss of great aloneness
We all arrive here
Coming from different entrance points
This is a critical point in the journey
Where we have choices to make
And no choice is wrong
Stand and gaze deeply into this void
where nothing and everything exists
without turning away
There you see the most crystal clear reflection
of the most beautiful sight
you have or ever will see
And then the choice we must makeLeave a comment
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Is the rainy and thunderous day bad?
No...
All is perfection
So too for the rain and thunders of our lives
All is perfectionLeave a comment
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It's a slow burn
understanding your traumas
the way you tick
unpacking the history
the conditions
the intense grief
that swallows you whole some days...
But the effort is worth it
The felt pain, though deep,
does not stay forever
The slog leads to the most delicious,
authentic,
secure,
confident,
freedom...
That belongs to only youLeave a comment
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On difficult emotions
Let them go
Let them rise within
And let them subside
Don't hold them
Don't digest them
Let them pass throughLeave a comment
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If life takes you in a different direction..
Let it.
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Flip your story on its head..
Yes the pain, the sorrow, the ache
But more the strength, the resilience, the power
You are the hero of this story
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The suffering serves its purpose
It shapes you
It deepens you
It transforms you
And then there comes a time
The perfect time
Where it must be dropped
Like a hot coal
The chrysalis breaks open
And you emerge brand new
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The ghost
That's what the problem is
It's being around a person that makes me feel so unseen, so unloved
Like a ghost
It triggers the most primal revulsion in me
It stems from the beginning
From the time when I was most vulnerable
When I was supposed to be nurtured
When I was supposed to learn how to trust
Crazy no matter how far I've come
One holiday around her
Feels like it set me back a million yearsLeave a comment
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From the ground up
Today I was thinking about my desires..
To one day be surrounded by people I love, who love me,
who I feel safe with..
Then it dawned on me..
I don't feel safe with anyone.
Sitting with this for a moment,
I don't get sad like I sometimes do.
Feeling so lonely.
Instead I tell myself the first most important thing is,
I feel safe with me.
I protect me.
I have the power now..
I didn't then,
But I do now.
This is where the work starts..
Knowing that I can be who I needed to show up for me then.
I come to my own rescue.
I build my own strength from the ground up.
Growing up we sometimes don't get the protection from the people that are supposed to protect us. Sometimes the people closest to us are the ones who harm us. This is not our fault. Our younger selves do everything they can to survive. Wounds can be deep and painful.
It starts with baby steps, learning to love ourselves. Something we may have never been shown how to do or taught. Learning to love ourselves also means protecting ourselves. Not abandoning ourselves to please others. Not putting others needs before our own. Not exposing ourselves to harmful people or situations that don't have our best interest at heart.
Our mental health, our safety, our happiness is our responsibility. Which can feel daunting, but actually it is empowering. We get to choose now. Be a warrior and fight for your life. Be decisive. Choose you. You can heal. You can be happy. You can experience genuine love. And you absolutely deserve the best things life has to offer. Thoughts?Leave a comment
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