I am beautiful in all of my days,
in all of my moments,
even in my most vulnerable,
the softest..
Even more so here..
The flowers tell me so

Welcome! Writings surrounding courage, inspiration, resilience, healing and navigating the vicissitudes of life. Fighting for a life so worth living.
Thank you to all who have gone before me
Who held the torch so high
so that I could see in the dark night
I crawled and crawled
and you did not waver
The light stayed strong
Just like you said it would
"Keep going" you always implored
And now I'm here
I made it
Filled with gratitude
I see you hand me the torch
I will hold it too for those on their way
We must do this for each other
Every thought you have
brings either peace or war,
either love or fear.
Today I was thinking about my desires..
To one day be surrounded by people I love, who love me,
who I feel safe with..
Then it dawned on me..
I don't feel safe with anyone.
Sitting with this for a moment,
I don't get sad like I sometimes do.
Feeling so lonely.
Instead I tell myself the first most important thing is,
I feel safe with me.
I protect me.
I have the power now..
I didn't then,
But I do now.
This is where the work starts..
Knowing that I can be who I needed to show up for me then.
I come to my own rescue.
I build my own strength from the ground up.
Growing up we sometimes don't get the protection from the people that are supposed to protect us. Sometimes the people closest to us are the ones who harm us. This is not our fault. Our younger selves do everything they can to survive. Wounds can be deep and painful.
It starts with baby steps, learning to love ourselves. Something we may have never been shown how to do or taught. Learning to love ourselves also means protecting ourselves. Not abandoning ourselves to please others. Not putting others needs before our own. Not exposing ourselves to harmful people or situations that don't have our best interest at heart.
Our mental health, our safety, our happiness is our responsibility. Which can feel daunting, but actually it is empowering. We get to choose now. Be a warrior and fight for your life. Be decisive. Choose you. You can heal. You can be happy. You can experience genuine love. And you absolutely deserve the best things life has to offer. Thoughts?
It is all connected my love..
Your biggest fear
Your biggest pain
Your biggest love
All flow together,
as your purpose.
Being present for your own suffering is powerful.
This is where transformation occurs…
where lead turns to gold.
The deeper the valley life carves in you,the higher youcan soar.
When feeling disconnected
When feeling down
When feeling overwhelmed
When feeling unsure
Feel
But remember beneath all of the haziness
A crystal clear stream runs through you
that is perfect, pure and ancient
Even the densest fog always clears

Oh this life almost dragged me under
For a split second I forgot who I was
Then I remembered I am the stardust, the buzzing bee,
the mountaintop
I am all and all is me
Whole and made in perfection

Just as a rose is perfect in every stage of its unfoldment, So too am I.

Fear arises
And then I feel afraid of the fear
That it will take me over
Like a tsunami that arises before me
In a formidable black wall
Growing growing
Arching over menacingly
Moving towards me at a quickening pace
I turn to run
Like I have so many times
Terrified
Sure to be consumed
Something in me stops this time
I close my eyes
I ask you Great Spirit for your hand
I ask for your protection
I seek your Light amidst this total darkness
The Light I know
which gives life to all
You answer in a most gentle way
Showing me first a glimmer,
then guiding me to watch it expand
until it fills me
And when I start to overflow in your Light
You tell me to open my eyes
To show me everything lit up,
sparkling and dancing
"This is power" you whisper
"The Only Power"
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