The Golden Thread

Today I was thinking about my desires..
To one day be surrounded by people I love, who love me, 
who I feel safe with..

Then it dawned on me..
I don't feel safe with anyone.

Sitting with this for a moment,
I don't get sad like I sometimes do.
Feeling so lonely.
Instead I tell myself the first most important thing is,
I feel safe with me.

I protect me.
I have the power now.. 
I didn't then,
But I do now.
This is where the work starts..
Knowing that I can be who I needed to show up for me then.
I come to my own rescue.
I build my own strength from the ground up.

Growing up we sometimes don't get the protection from the people that are supposed to protect us.  Sometimes the people closest to us are the ones who harm us.  This is not our fault.  Our younger selves do everything they can to survive. Wounds can be deep and painful.

It starts with baby steps, learning to love ourselves.  Something we may have never been shown how to do or taught.  Learning to love ourselves also means protecting ourselves.  Not abandoning ourselves to please others.  Not putting others needs before our own.  Not exposing ourselves to harmful people or situations that don't have our best interest at heart.

Our mental health, our safety, our happiness is our responsibility.  Which can feel daunting, but actually it is empowering.  We get to choose now.  Be a warrior and fight for your life.  Be decisive.  Choose you.  You can heal.  You can be happy.  You can experience genuine love.  And you absolutely deserve the best things life has to offer.  Thoughts?